Puzzle

I feel strong but week at the same time.  When I feel like my humbleness is wasted, that's when I feel weak.  When I feel like my humbleness is ignored, I feel strong.

I am a human being.  I do have emotions.  I cannot always control my emotions.  I sometime want to let them deal with my emotions, but I must stay strong so I don't even have to doubt if they can deal with my emotions.

Is this wrong?  Am I afraid to trust them too much?

Ego ..... could become too strong, and that's when humbleness is either wasted or ignored.  I want to be strong enough to feel that my humbleness is ignored rather than wasted.

I should focus on being more humble, maybe.

This is like a puzzle.