I realized that ..........

I realized that something is missing from me, which is what I used to have before I came here, the U.S. 4 years ago.  There is an eagle and dolphin inside me.  Before coming to the U.S, the dolphin was occupying more of me than the eagle was.  Now, eagle is occupying more than dolphin is.  The eagle in me is too powerful, I feel.  I have to ask the eagle not to stand out that much, so the elegance of the dolphine can stand out a little bit more.